Friday, September 22, 2006


I have decided that I have no idea what I am doing, I can not handel two kids and a job. Quitting my job is not a option besides I do not think that I could stay home full time anyway. The worst part is I have no idea what to do about it but cry. WS aside if I knew then ( 16m) ago I would have never in a million years had two children unless I had full tim help. Don't get me wrong I love both my girls with everything in me but I am drowning. I'm sure I'll be fine maybe some sleep would help, who knows.

I pay 200 more a month for my mortgage then I pay for daycare!!! You would think for that I could find a Nannie... Worst thing is in my area my daycare is not overpriced it is one of the best and fairest priced in the area, they are great. I think my girls have gotten more out of going there then they would have ever gotten at home with Chris or I...Can I just SCREAM...

Venting IN MD!!!


Amy K said...

Awww, Lis. You'll feel better after getting home, putting on your favorite jammies, some good music, a glass of vino and a good movie. Slow down and just push the bull crap aside and BREATH. That is what I am doing tonight, no wine for me of course, pizza instead, but maybe a fire since it is cold and rainy here. Maybe yoiu should buy a new pair of shoes too, that helps(:

Erica H. said...

We all have those moments and being a mother of two children is "extremely overwhelming", just remember your not alone. You a great mom. Just breathe. Have a great weekend. We will have to get together soon (minus the little ones).

Gretchen said...

Why don't you move to Baltimore where everything is *so much cheaper* (meaning less stress!).
I hope you have a relaxing weekend!

Anonymous said...

You and your sister are six weeks shy of two years apart. As you may remember I did not work when you both were young. I was home and still thought I was going to go crazy trying to get things done. I remember feeling so overwhelmed. I remember thinking and praying "This too shall Pass".
I know this is not much help hearing--it does get easier, but it does. What you are feeling is not uncommon. I do not know what I can do to help with the distance, but all you need to do is ask. I love you very much and am very proud of all you have achieved and the how hard you work.

Kerry said...

I think you should move up here to New England and we could job share somewhere so we both get some $$ but also time with the kids! :)

Seriously, I completely understand where you are coming from and already wrote a draft of this issue on my blog! (We must think alike!) You should really sit down and do your budget, then figure out how many hours you really need to be gone - maybe you only need to work a few long days versus a 40-hr work week. You've got to count in gas, daycare $$, $$ you spend on take-out food because you are too tired to cook after working, even drycleaning if your job requires the fancy duds.

I always wanted to be a stay-at-home mom, but that was because I was also going to be writing my Great American Novel (to be done by the time I was 30 - I am 37 now.) I have to say, though, the two days I get out to work are great - some ME time, time I get things accomplished.

You should call up your closest girlfriend and take in a really cheesy movie and laugh your a** off. I'll have a cocktail with you in spirit.
Love - K

taiautumn said...

Lisa, Lisa, Lisa...I wish I knew what to say to make things all better. But, unfortunately, I do not. But I do know, things will get better. As my mom always said, "This too shall pass." And it will...we just have to be patient. Love you!

Lisa Reynolds said...

I said close to these words a couple of weeks ago. Don't worry it does get better and than worse and than better and so on ......
everyone goes through it although most people I know don't have our issues. Just know that your doing the best you can and thats all you can do. Your a great mom but you are allowed to feel overwhelmed.

Nicole Moore said...

I feel your pain...after the past three years in/out of the hospital with Ella I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL and like your mom said 'this too shall pass" you can do it!Tatum is a blessing and you can Chris can do this.Have a glass of wine for me and cherish every minute,before you know it Tatum will be like the girls and in pre-school,dance,swimming.....